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Heyhey,
Madley here, and you know it,
speaking through my eyes, my heart.,
loving all you pretty people, lovin all the world,.
loving my life, crazy, crazy about it.
being young, a gift,
crazy, a honour,
me, the best ever.
cheers, y'all.

MEandMEEEEE
the name's Xuere FannYee Madeleine, Madley for short,
am currently 15 and having a blast.
was born in december, the 25th-loving it!!!
loves, me peeps, me style, & me, naturally.
always there, but never obtrusive; that's me.
cheers.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

this is officially my second post, and i know, i know, people are probably wondering why i started a blog sooooo late, in terms of age and timing in the year.
well, then, heres the answer-because i like it. simply that-beat that, people.
anyway, dont know why i started this with such a sad post-soooooooo ironic, not to mention unbecoming, so lets get started on...something else...? i'm not sure myself, actually. never ming, heres my life story uptil now anyway-mind you, it hasnt been a very long one, only fifteen years, but still.

so, i was born on the 25th of december-i know, its cool, yea?-in year 1994, to my dear, but awesomely strict mother, Adelaide Mae, as a bundle of joy. but of course, the baby was me, you know. anyway, so theres momma, and my stupidly retarded, beloved brother, Zacharias, who is, unfortunately 21 this year, which is 6 years older than me, though he acts so much more superior and all. although i know he loves me, cause he's really protective though-his friends says he has sister complex- but it gets really annoying, sometimes. plus my wonderful friends, which i will introduce later and so, im here, in secondary school now, and enjoying my life-totally-with no regrets, AS LIFE IS AWESOME!!!
wait, more about me: 1.7m-yes, i am that tall-and, erm, slender...is it? willowy even, with brownish, blackish, hair that seem to change to varying shades of brown, that falls to, what, my butt...and light brown eyes, that smaller than most people's. oh, and im pale-not even pinkish pale, but more of pale, pale, translucent even, i dont know why-with a great complexion and high cheekbones. well, that something to be proud of anyways. add in a flattish nose, and a not so striking mouth, a boyish body, and thats me. so, basically, im very normal. yups, a typical girl. there, said it.

okay, so thats that, and now theres bree, and kassie.
bree: well, shes almost like me, in body size that is, tall at 1.67m-but im still taller, and i seem softer, not as lean-with a better figure. not that im saying anything but...short-well, chin length-black spiky hair that frames her face just right, beautiful dark bluish eyes-shes half and half, you know. a british chinese, i think-and she has the pale skin with the pinkish undertone that im so jealous of. shes totally gorgeous.

oh well, i guess you cant have everything in life.

next up,kassie: small and petite, at 1.58m, not that shes ever let her size stop her before. wild, curly, shoulder length hair in brown, with goldenish highlights, go perfectly with her tan skin and dark eyes-so mysterious, i've often said-and her full lips. all her features are, well, small and sharp, making her look like an almost porcelain doll. and shes also gorgeous.

and so, i've got such gorgeous friends.
too bad i'm so plain.

not like i'm jealous or anything, but, well, it would be nice to look more exotic and unique...
i wish i didn't look like what i am; a chinese, almost like its written on my face, especially in the eyes.
oh, the self-pity im wallowing in.

oh well, other than that, i'm, well, lets not say satisfied, but more of content, with myself.
i do have a wonderful personality, you know.
plus, im me, and im special.

like everyone of us is, in our very own way.
cheers.

hoping for the best.
8:34 PM

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

what a beautifully wet, cold, RAINY day today. simply gorgeous, wasn't it? and oh, so sad as well. you know, i don't know why, its just the feeling everytime it rains-its just so wonderfully melancholic, don't you think? hmmm? maybe not. well, to each his own-or her own, in this case.

hung out at bree's today, along with kassie, of course-i shouldn't even be saying this, you would know; we're all, inseparable after all.

so we're there, talking about stuffs, okay, gossiping actually, about, erm, well, you could say, about everything!!! don't just love the way we can talk about just anything? i know i love it, love it, LOVE IT. gives us much more scope, and well, we were talking about, well, us.
you know, it really hurts when we realise that we, will, eventually, one time or another, separate, and go our own ways.
kassie, to art school, to fufil her life long dream of becaoming an artist, obviously.
bree, to junior college with me, but with different subjects, to become business woman.
and me, to the course which would, in time to come, put me into a psycological department.

and it hurt.
terribly.

well, i suppose, we've only known each other for about, 4, or 5 years, or even less then that, but, to tell you the truth, they are the only first real friends i've ever had.
before that, i had nothing.
nothing at all.

i was happy, then, but its not the same!!! no, never, never the same. that superficial happiness, was...empty-even worse than the deep sadness i feel sometimes.
life would never be the same without them.
never.

so, we talked about...this,
and so, naturally, we were crying.

then, bree lifted those big, dark blue eyes of hers, and said,
" you know, we're talking about this, and we're sad and all.
but hey, life goes on, and ours go on as well.
we, you two, have to move forward...
but one thing's for sure-i'll never forget you two, and the memories we've shared.
i love you guys, i wish we were sisters..."
and she grabbed our hands.

then kassie, typical kassie, replied,
" no, you don't.
we'd be a terrible nuisance,we'd all die,
and you know it."
and we laughed.

while holding each others hands.

well, i guess that separation is a part of life, huh. but at least we have 1 years time together, in the very, very least. and maybe a few years after that...live the most of it!!!

separation is a part of one's life.
its inevitable.

and its a part i wish would never happen.

but, hey, as bree said, life goes on. and as bree also said, i also wish they were my sisters.

oh, the hell lot of trouble we'd get in.
haha-cheers.

hoping for the best.
8:34 PM